Sunday, November 23, 2008

SUMMER OF ..umm....'96...one of my school holidays

I had been out this weekend to a nearby place called Karjat. It was somehow planned with office colleagues to just get some time out and maybe enjoy. So we had booked this small time resort there complete with a swimming pool and slides. That place..leave the resort...i cant call it a town. It was a village..a small village where shops close at 8:00 in the evening, there is no electricity(at least not when i reached there). There were these kerosene wicks and a very few people. The railway station itself was in such a desolate & dark state that it reminded me of some other places i had been to in my life till now. 

My dad is in transferrable job, and so typically every 3 years he is into a new place which 80 percent of the times is something which would seem prehistoric to people in the cities. So, it was our yearly ritual to go and spend summer holidays in the place where my dad would be currently posted (we stayed away from dad most of the time, just because the places he lived werent that good to stay..mainly becasue our parents cared so much about our schooling part). I think, had they not cared so much about us, i would be another of those spoiled and wasted brats trying to find a way back!! I am talking about these places so when i was in 7th grade, my dad was transferred to this place called Maneri, which is near to a place called Utarkashi. It is in uttaranchal...upper himalayas. Its very much near to Gangotri, the place where river Ganga originates.

So, like every summer we went to this new place with my mom. It was a perfect place likes ones u c in a canvass...hills all over..a river..village...it was just beautiful and  I would like to recreate it :) It was on the banks of river Ganges. At these hills, the rivers are like anything! There are rocks moving alongwith with water, of the size that would otherwise seem unimaginable to move. There was another village which looked all fresh on the opposite side of the river, and i was told that the year before  it actually was all washed away by floods and was relocated. There were very dim lights there..of course kerosene lamps. There was a school there too, but no roads, there was a hanging bridge that connected ends across the river. If anyone walks on this bridge it would start oscilatting like this pendulum, and i always feared walking on that. Once i went almost halfway, but then came back and sat in the middle crying. I was almost dizzy( but this thing happened 15 years back..!)  It really is an example of bad engineering i guess, because it shook so much that i thought that if someone ran on it, i am sure it would turn upside down!! It was a free roller coaster ride of sorts! There was only one shop in Maneri, or two..i dont remember clearly, and it sold everything. Every evening, my brother was all excited, because in the evening there was a bakery guy who came on his cycle. He rode all the way in this hilly terrain from a bakery 14 kms away. He sold some heart shaped cakes which my younger brother manish loved. Oh, he shared it with me a few time and i can recall its taste, it was good. Where we lived, above that was papa's office( it was all site work, so its just an office for namesake ), and it was all fenced. I was told that in the night there were tigers that came from the jungle. Once in the night, about 10 people inclding me were sitting after dinner with a kerosene lamp in between, and there was this cook, who had been there for very long at this same place. That day he told us the stories, of how many times he saw a tiger. Hardly anyone went to the office room, atleast i avoided. even if i did, i made sure to keep an eye for a tiger. In my mind i had already imagined how i would kill a tiger if i faced it!!  Obviously..no tiger dared...some dogs did but.There were also a decnt sized vegetable garden that my dad made sure were maintained, and he put a person specially for taking care of this small farm. I remember what grew there...potato, sugarcane, spinach, cauliflower...lots of things. This thing also saved lots of shopping from a market far away. So this summer this day my dad told some people to get the potatoes, as they were ready. I was very excited and we three brothers joined in to get the potatoes. That was the day i realized that potatoes grew inside the soil. Otherwise i always thought that they grew like tomatoes or brinjals or peas hanginng. We enjoyed that day to take these plants out and get the potatoes. 

One other day ..everyone was sleeping and i wanted to have this sugarcane thing so i went out with my brother, with a kitchen knife. spent 2 hours, trying to get that thing off...but it didnt. I had to leave it half cut there....then i remember i got a beating for getting out in the sun. Me and my brother had all gone dirty and sweaty! Since there were no electricity there,we were told that we have to study in the day and complete holiday homework, evening was for cricket...with some people from this camp( driver and the helper). This cricket place was close to the river and we very very very strictly told not to touch water. And actually we were sent alongwith the bhaiya to look out for us. Once my brother went near to the water.....even i was so angry over him that i slapped him. He gave me a punch..that the fight continued till the bhaiya came in between. Later i complained to mom that he had gone near water ..and he got a good beating! now call me anything for that....but anyways scores were settled it was all settled because even i got a beating and my third brother too. This thing was typical about my mom....if one got a beating..each one of us three got atleast something. And so for the next few days atleast we were like the best kids around. Well but apart from the shared beating we got, my two brothers also murdered the two fishes in the small plastic bottle where i had kept them. This time i cried for real..and only these two got the beating..i dint. But my fishes were dead...:( . My father got me enrolled for a computer course, because he did not want that i should waste my time.moreover, i had a computer clases in school and he thought it would help. So i was enrolled for this, and i had to travel 14 kms everyday...n i was about 15 or smaller...everyday i reached this place..bought a Cadburys Gems...ate it...reached late for the classes....evening back..i took an icecream..and back home. I dont remeber if i learnt anything at all ther..but i still have the certificate that reads "Certified that Mr. Ashok Kumar Joshi (later in 10th grade i  removed this kumar from my name as i thought i sounded uncool!)completed course in language BASIC ,from balahblah institute and his perfomance is V.GOOD" well...!!

One other day, there was a person who came with a bear(a real bear)! I remeber that peron had a suitcase with him. He showed a teeth and said it was a tigers teeth. Then there were tigers hair..beerrs teeth, hair...and he was selling them as some kind of medicine. He also  had a drum and made the bear dance and shake hands with the few ppl around. My dad handed me a 10 ruppee note to give to the bear but damn!! How cud i touch the bear...i was so very afraid of it.

While our summer holidays were almost over, we were about to leave and dabbu went missing(one of the dogs). These two had become very friendly with us, and also accompanied us for cricket. We thought he would be back, but he never did. Later on the cook told that the tiger had eaten dabbu. Poor dabbu!

All in all, it was a fabulous summer...and this thing happened to me more than 12 years back. I had lot of beautiful summers like this one. And i remember each and everything..as this is a
thing of yesterday. Only yesterday we were kids..not ready to think about anything! Things change....dont they?
:)

I heard that that village now has electricity....with loadshedding... well maintained school and other things.
 

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

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China is a big country..with lots of people..lots who use internet i guess. Because i just came to realize that whenever i am surfing the blogs...every second blog that pops up belongs to someone who has the chinese looks..i mean alright they may be korean..japanese..vietnamese..or whateverese....but to me they all look like chinese..infact 90 percent are. Ya..so every second blog that pops put is from a chinese and what is common to this cult of blogs is this:


Its full of pictures..picture of them with frenzied hairs.


Everyone is wearing this..a benetton tee and converse shoes..trying to look like a punk( hey what the hell!!) suddenly..punk is cool? It is actually i guess ;)


They would scribble something in english but if u try to read it it would sound like gibberish ( Well..some people write that in chinese only..this time me browser would almost crash trying to decode it...finally what i would see is only squares n special characters)


ummm..anything else so typical? ..who the hell cares anyways...but population..biggg problem really !! take INDIA..big country...lot of people ..but they wont eat up the blog space..thats good..yayaya...... save a few like  me :(  ..reason is simple enough..they dont know calculator...who would give a damn about a computer!!  Talking of population.....i remember this..i actually know someone who has lfair number of kids...proud father he must be....10 kids is such a feat (see his face anytime to define proud)........the latest one is a small baby girl...i dont understand...is this a kid factory?? Theres a store nearby my home..but its called ShoeFactory not KidFactory!  

I want to actually write about recession and give you all a lecture on economy but i am feeling to sleepy for it now. willl dooooooooo itttt llllllaaaatteeeeeeeer.......see? i am almost sleeping now!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Anniversary Issue !!

6th of November 2007. 
Exactly a year back, i was in the streets of Kolkata trying to find a place called the IFBI centre. This was the day i joined the working lot with a big smile. It was also the day when i started writing this blog. So, this also happens to the day when this blog of mine was born. So its a happy birthday! clap clap!!
Thank You..Thank You!!

6th November 2008
I didnt realize i finished a year as a working professional till i received a mail from the HR that i am now a confirmed employee with this firm. I dont know if this is a good thig or bad..because that doesnt reallly change anything. Ya..one thing it changes is that if i decide to leave this company, i would have to pay them 3 months of my salary. So, apart from that i dont now what changes are there. Ah alright, one more thing i just ralized..my younger brother, he also joined today. This day would be his first...actually second..count as first! ..working day. Lots of things changed in a year.  I moved to Mumbai, got a new place to live, then again my office got shifted..learnt quite a few things. Basically, a very busy one year it was. I guess one reason was that everyone was waiting for some new guy to join in....because thats the head to dump all useless work. So that was also something i experienced...and learnt..bad thing to do..but thats basically a joining gift you get. Sure, i also passed on some. Nothing much i have to write for this time.....i just wrote all this crap..just because i thought i should do it..but i harldy liked writing this. So thats the end...for now.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Sunday night out at Leopold' , Colaba



Sunday night was spent in downtown Colaba. I was just reading through a blog, and it was pretty amusing when i read in that ( Colaba is a tourist place in Mumbai). I dont really know if it is. Maybe selling cheap clothes(of course with a touch of traditional Indian taste) and imported fake jewellery from China makes it of this sort...addd to it s few stores and pork or beef serving shops. Ya...good bars too!.... So, i was there with some of  my friends who had come from Pune, they wanted to drink at a good place, so we chose LEOPOLD( See my friend in the picture).  Leoplod is good of sorts, especially if you have that thing to be amused by the sight of old and young foreigners sipping on their beers and discussing things which range from Bollywood to the recession in US..to the new great big bang which ppl say will occur in a month or so! I want to write just a bit more about Colaba..its amusing. Perhaps, its the best place to be in Mumbai, because of lot of reasons. Go there any weekend and see the most beautiful girls there. Apart from that, there are a lot of other things to be seen at Colaba some of which i noticed like:

1. Seeing a couple of foreign girls handing a child beggar a 50 rupee note, then clicking a picture of him. (Later on they'll go on to write a book about beggars in India, and talk about the mess they saw here..which eventually will become bestsellers). The picture might fetch them an award as well.

2. A long line of shops selling T-shirts, handbags, cheap perfumes, ethnic indian wear, indian jewellery ( all this indian stuff comes from China actually...so its a chinese thing with an indian look n feel.....!)

3. A guy selling a Dholak( those who dont know..consider it as a single drum which is much rounder and fatter!!)....a guy running to sell it to my friend( who is indian but looks chinese...he just mistook him)..and asking him to buy in a broken english.."Sir, Sir......drum drum..very good sound..party ..party!!!!". 

4. A man coming back to the same friend of mine and saying...Sir, sir..indian girl..china girl...very cheap..very cheap...500 only!!!

Well, apart from that, Colaba has a good crowd, good stores..its good to shop there. Perhaps the churchgate area also is the cleanest in Mumbai. It still got good architecture from the britishers.....then theres the Asiatic society( its a national library i heard). Its a very beautiful building, but its pathetic from inside (our government is good at giving names to places...no one cares to maintain it). A school library is lot lot better!!

 But Lemme not talk about it and come back to the Leopold...somethinngs cooking in there.. So we were there at leopolds besides a couple( Australian.later i knew that..and an oldie). The aussie girl was good looking and my new friend..he came from pune a day back..he cudnt get his eyes off her. So, he said this to us. "I'll listen to these people talking and i will laugh when they laugh"..pretty awkward..but then its alright to do what u want to do..ppl say tht right!! So in between we were talkinng he'd just turn around and start laughing. He just made friends with the old aussie sitting there..dont know what all he talked about....(he made the old man wait 20 minutes to fill his mug of beer..he ont let go!) .......but whatever it was, the ending was like this, The old man didnt know the girl..they just met over beer..and so...it implied he cidnt help him with the girlie! I dont really followed up on this, but while leaving the old man took a picture of him n others..the girl ws in there too. So well, maybe thats some solace for the poor fellow. So that was sunday...like tht.just saw them off to Pune..came back and dozzzzzed off. Its been abt 24 hours since..and again i am going to sleep...office office again...sucks!!!!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Free Tip@me.com: How to buy a wine for the first time, find u dont hv a cork opener...n ruin it all!


It was meant to be just an outing at the nearby mall..just to find a beautiful girl i saw last week with whim i exchanged glances..thats it! only tht much....she dint come this time..why wud she actually? Well...so thers this new wine store which opened. I never drink beer....save a few breezers, but this shop was really cool and the shop owner just repeated so much so the importance of wine in life( U'd rather die than not buy a bottle from him shop)..that well i had to say..ok lets try.  Soo after much explanation he did about Red wine..port wine..white wine....grape wine..apple wine....imported wint...local wine..desi wine....he started with showing us the imported ones ..the bottles looked good n really good...However, considering the fact that it wass month end with a credit crunch, we(actually it shud be he..my friend paid) settled for this good looking bottle at a cheap rate. See the piccy there(with a floating cork). Finally after much wine suggestions from the old glass wearing Uncleji....we paid n came out.

So, here we are, two glasses perfectly cleaned...one plastic glass n one glass glass( rest were like...off to heavens long back). So..heres the perfect ceremony to make me drink for the first time. Ver carefylly open the bottle..openthe wrapper above it. Made sure we had a bottle opener( the one u have in a nailcutter). So its opened, and viola!! whats this? Thers no nothing////whats this!! ITS a CORK! Cork opener? I imagined it must look like a screw n u move it round n round. So i explain this to my friendo who is already poking the knife into the cork. The cork wont budge ..it wud just tear off a bit from here n there. So well...knife over..what else...probably a pan holders edge? naaah......after much engineering i got a pen tried to poke it hardinto the cork and then...SPLASH....whats that? thats a WINE FOUNTAIN idiota!! ya some got into my mouth as well with pieces of cork!..YUCKS!! was it the wine or the cork which tasted so bad in my mouth!! BAD BAD BAD..

But the cork was inside the bottle to let us pour it into glasses..say CHEERS..with wine all over the clothes....n everywhere else....and it tasted like....dunno what...no comparisions......but a piece of another advice for free...DONT BUY CHEAP INDIAN WINE IN A GOOD LOOKINNG BOTTLE..N YA>>>MAKE SURE U GOT A CORK OPENER!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Long time..just a hi!

Well......as they say..Long time..no see!! Now this is quite the same. Its been long since i put up something into my well-talked-about blog. Much has changed like it does everyday..small changes..big changes.....no changes. Yet, it seems all the same. I cant believe i am 8 months into this job..this very first job i had..and yet everyday has seemed to be different yet it seems all the same. This is relative right? The small picture and the big one...this and that...blah n blah...mish n mash....well well..
Ok..in between all these days quite a lot of things happened..like my office changed...and the thing i cherished the most..no travel time...10 minutes is nothing i guess..turned into a mind boggling somewhere around 2 hours which prompted me to THINK about changing my house. I am still thinking on those lines...only thinking ok. Other thing which happened was that i made some new friends..went on a weekend trip to a place called Matheran....a good place to be...but then after travelling for so many years in the ups b downs of our great Himalayas...these small hills..like the ones in matheran dont really made me open my mouth to get that fresh chilled air which was hardly there....But it is a good place...good for a change from the heat and dust aned crowd and traffic and trains and buses and people and people and people eveywhere. The best thing there...no vehicles ..not at all...all i saw in the name of some automobile there was an ambulance and i kept thinking..how could iy have come here..because we had to trek to reach there..a toy train might take u there..but we dint take it..walking was more fun.....
I also came to realize that i would hardly ever be happy doing this job....this job doesnt mean i have any grudges with my job as such..it is a good job..good colleagues.n all..but maybe i dont fit into Mumbai....maybte a smaller place would suit me?..but aaargh..only if wishes could be horses..n i could hop onto one of the dark stallion..and ride my way to somewhere in the cool and peace of the hills...!!
I have seen quite a lot in Mumbai now....lots of places...lots of bars n mueseums...oh yah...some funny things i saw...like last week i was coming back at night from Dadar station...at around 11 ..and there was this bi broad sign.NO HAWKERS....right under it..and for as long as you can see..there were people with round baskets selling virtually everything .....thats not the thing to be noticed..somewhere somehow someone came to know a policeman was coming their way.....i hardly could blink my eye and i saw those hawkers shooing away with their baskets over thier heads....it seemed more of a formality..like as if they went away as a sign of "respect" for that policeman...and yah..there he emerged..from the crowd...a hero...looking on the sides to make sure that nobody is selling anything on the streets......its common police guys getting paid to overlook things,,but i saw it for the first time. I walked a few steps..and there were these lot of young girls standing near the rails..each one trying to look their best and besides them...a fat black woman with flowers all over her hair..guess she had more no. of flowers then the hairs...waiting..for what? I was just trying to think and collate it with all those movies i saw ..but then my friend said..." Item log hai.....u want one?"...it isnt hard to guess.........I like Mumbai for one thing..here everything is possible......and u get to see so many different things......thats there..but apart from that...everyday is a struggle......i am amazed how people have been so for so many years.,..same local train..same office...same run......and yet everyday is a new day for them......i just pray ....n try that let me get out of here very soon....i need to get outta this madness ......guess i am not

Sunday, May 25, 2008

RED GREEN YELLOW

I generally take a rick to get to the office in the mornings. Well, theres this traffic signal near to the office where everyday i get stuck up for 5 minutes. So, everyday thers something to see there. Well, on the footwalk, there is a family ...some workrer family ....who seem to be living there. Everyday i am seeing them. A typical scene there would involve them having water in a small round vessel. They wud be washing 2 or 3 dishes which they have..but before that they wud make sure that they have washed whatever clothes they have in the same water. There are three bricks between which they have stuffed some wood and they are trying to cook something in a broken pot. Thers a mat which is hung up for use at night. Its fully torn and the kids are seen playing with some pebbles they colleected along the way. They do not have any clothes on and probably they will grow up yo become the way there parents are. I feel ashamed of myself writing it all, coz theres nothing that i am doing for them.
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There are heaps an heaps of people all over ... its all about survival. They work in the day....whatever they get they feed themselves...they get back to sleep wherever they get place..on the roadside...on the footpath...inside the big round pipes...on the sand piled up for construction work...thers no stopping. And well...no wonder if some drunk guy drives his SUV over them.
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Yess....here in this place people generally dont take up anything well. If you are trying to help someone..make sure you be ready to be hit back..i was at this train station yesterday..long queue..i had to wait half an hour to get the ticket itself. There was this old man standing in the front..so well he dint have change and the person refused to give him a ticket after bullying him. The old man(he wsnt very old..but old enugh to be called old)...just muttered something..he looked pretty helpless...coz it meant he wont be getting the ticket unless he got the change. Ok...I just offered that i will buy him the ticket instead. WEll...maybe this is something i shudnt have done coz all i got back was screaming and embarassment. So helpiing here is a crime. So you do nt have to try this. This is not the only experience ..thats why i am saying this. Mumbai is not a very friendly place...people seem to be all preoccupied with themselves. They see..but they ignore. Thats the way it is darling!!
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Pretty long time has passed since i just put up something here in this space. Maybe just that i did not get anything to muse about, because life these days seems to be a routine work trying to find a much needed balance between work and trying to catch up with other things. Now this is something that might be hard to explain and maybe people struggle whole lives to have this. IS IT??
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Well..i have been reading books and the book that i am reading now is " Wrestling the Dragon" which is about the XVII Karmapa, the kid Lama who fled away form Tibet. Its something thats of interest to me coz i think i have been alway been fascinated and excited to learn more about Buddhism.. about Tibet and should i say...History?? i am not very sure about this. So, thats what i am currently doing now.
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Office front....ya i m holding my ground betwen everyday tensions....bullies. BULLSHITS! There is talk going on that my office might be shifted to a new place and if this happens, this might take me more than an hour travelling to the place. Duuuuuudeeee....now where does that land me up!
the kingdom of deep shit???

Sunday, April 20, 2008

FIRE IN THE HOLE!!

So it was another weekend gone by....and well there was nothing very eventful except that i almost butnt the pan .... i just put up there something to cook and then well.....i forgot it..i got busy watching some new videos and well....after sometime ..my friend got in..and almost choked...it was all smoke n ...nonono..no fire..thank god...ot it wud have been pretty bad.....the pan was almost on the verge of being flowing out like what....hot lava?? no..it wasnt tht bad either..soo.....it just happened.
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Now i am famous ..or infamous..whatever you say. Well..i havw this very bad habit of forgetting my mobile everywhere n everytime....and its been atleat 3 or 4 times that i just kept it at my desk and the other friend of mine..who sits next to me..he would take it..keep it hiddedn and then i'll be allll time searching for it. I juast keep on forgetting that...and everytime its with him...but i am forgetting things....itsss bad!! its really bad.
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Ok another thing happend..interesting..(maybe ..of sorts)...well this Mumbai local...i am still not used to it..i avoid as i can. Well so the other day i had to travel in it. I had a second class ticket..i was waiting for the train....it came..i cudnt get in..too much rush...another came...nopes..stil not..third came...not even this one...so well i decided..that i cant get inside....so i just got thought maybe i can get into the first class compartment(its a little..very little better)...though i dint have the ticket but its very common here to travel without a ticket..so anyways...i thought atleast i have the ticket...so i somehow managed to get inside. So well thers one more thing to add here. The people who travel by tht first class know cam make it out that who is travelling withoiut ticket or who just got into this first class compartment.
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So as i got in...i heard someone screaming(not at me)..hey you..this is first class comp..get out...the poor guy who looked black with sweat n all.....was literally thrown out. The same guy tells me.....these ppl na...they travel without tickets and get inside..they shud be beaten( i was almost imagining how it would be like if someone came to know even i dint ave proper ticket)....so but neways...i just smiled and nodded. I went to the far corner//in between lot of people....i was almost happy that atleast i got in and no ticket checking ..no nothing..my bad luck..there was this toicket checker guy...he came straight to me...and said..ticket please....i stood still and figured out he wasnt talking to me....well the guy who he was talking to also dint have the proper ticket....so he took him with him...but wait......he wanted some more ppl whom he cud fine..he just said to me...sir, ticket please......
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The station had come..n i said..what yarr....letme get dowm first..but he wont let go...so anyways..what he said..ok come with me..held me by my hand(like i am a thief or something)....at that moment..i suddenly remembered... (last week there was a picture in newspaper...the caption read)....people traveling without tickets...i sudenly became adventorous..i thought hey llookk....fianlly..i might get to know what a lockup is like...i imagined that i am calling my friends..they are at the police station...but then we got to the office...and he sent rest of the without ticket guys in to another roopm..told me to stay...n asid..sir..what do you do....i just blah blahed something..and showed him my card...i tried to be stern and like..."its not my fault..i was pushed by crowd into this first class compartment" types....well but..he came to know i was in a bank..and said..look u can pay me 500 bucks....whatt!!! i can trvel to delhi from mumbai in that same money in a better kind of compartment...he said thats a fine....he gave me the other option...or you can come with me to the police station...what?? am i really going there..yahoo!!! but on second thought ....no yarr..let me pay this guy(in siomple words..thats a bribe)..i took a 100 rupee note...and said look(old... bald.. fat... idiot... bastard....i said these in myhead) what came out was...look sir( bastard..fk u !)...i got only this much....he was like..hahaha...heyy this is fine ok..nothing less than 300..i said i dont have any..he said 200...well i gave him 150...fianlly...i wish i cud have kicked him hard...i kicked that coke can instead...it almost hit that lady..thank god it didnt or she wud have yelled at me...(oye andha hai kya!!)..thats another experince at mumbai......but that rush at the station..it is maddening....mad mad mad ...........

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Tiger Anthem


Well.....i just came through this beautiful poem in Tigers thing on the WWF india website....

I too say....Save the tiger......Respect its Life. Respect Life..not only yours or of the tiger......but of every creature on this earth. Well...maybe we can learn to respect that. Belonging to a place where probably the worlds biggest tiger population thrives read Jim Corbett National Park...i know that these creatures do not have a lot of space to live in......we are eating out in to their place....worse still....we are killing them.....Join the Save the Tiger Campaign here....
..Seeing them in a zoo doesnt give the slightiest ideas as to how marvellous therse creatures look like in the wild..and how nature has bestowed on them the sheer power ... the might..the ROAR...Belive me, the world wont look good with only the Freaky Humans in it....maybe we should save it for ourselves...Hers that good sounding Anthem..The tiger Anthem:


My son asked me the other day

Do we have tigers only in the zoos

My teacher tells me the forests are gone

The deers are gone, wild animals are gone

The king of the junge now kills our cattle

Poachers on his trail Now people live where once he lived

His skin is up for sale.

I said son, your teacher's not fully right

Tigers are in danger, but still they survive

You can still see them in the wild Sure I will take you there someday

The future of the tiger still hangs by a thread

But the battle is still not lost We don't wanna see tigers only in the zoos

We'll save them at any cost And its now or never, for the future of the tiger

It is time to decide if we wanna see the tigers in the wild

And he looked you in the eye, When you shot him, before he died

It is time that we ensure we gave the tigers a safe home.

Well son, the tiger needs your support In you his future lies

If the tigers live, the forests live

And we need it for us to survive

I take the vow not to buy anything

That has tiger part

And I will try my best to gain all support

For the tiger with all my heart And its now or never....

Thursday, March 27, 2008

A day like no other

A day i will not atleast in the next few months. Ya. Thats for sure. I dint go to office today, without any particular reason. I just wanted a break..from that office. So i just called up one senior in the morning. And i faked...i told i have headache and dysentery. I had to think a lot..before i just called him up. I actually shouldnt have done it. Later on, I did feel guilty for telling a lie. And well..i am also not going to repeat that. But this day it became special in its own very kind. It was very different because the whole day i was all alone.....all alone in my flat..with noone besides me..no chitter chatter......and i enjoyed that. It was bliss. I spent the day reading books...cleaning my room....read old newspapers..had a chat with mum....and she also said i shudnt be doing this kind of thing.....just because that if something makes you feel guilty..you should not do it...Well..it was like listening to the heart and not to the soul....though this isnt a very big thing i did..people keep doing this......telling lies..faking things....but maybe i dont like it.....i hated it when a colleague actually called me up and asked me how i was......i was perfectly well and ...i had to say tht i am this n that....my guilty conscience...!

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How many of we feel that we need this kind of a day in our life? A day when you want to clear your mind..spending the day all by yourself.....enjoying the solitude.....sometimes it feels so great when you are alone..at times it happens doesnt it? You want to go far far away....fay from the maddening rush...you dont want to be bothered by whats happening in this world.....you want to come in terms with yourself......you are able to enjoy even that omlette that you made for yourself alongwith two slices of bread....even if it gets burnt its ok.....it still looks good and tastes better....it tastes like the best lunch you had in the last few weeks? weell...I feel I need this kind of day......I need it...I want it....again.

Now..why i liked the day? Why i am also grateful that i took it off? Its because i was all alone...and someone who knows me well also knows that its perfect for me to be this way.....be alone....all by myself..i enjoy my solitude! and i did that today.....i think that from the day i came to this mad place..first time i was at peace with myself....and this world. I recreated old memories...i read books...i studied an old book which i had already read....i listened to music with low volume....and i was actually able to recount the days that i was having a year back..back at home.....back at the college.....with friends ..i took my time to thank god for eveything i have in this life......for that he has blessed me with more than i deserve...so thats also another reason why this day was special. I took a look at old photographs...my old stamp book..my old coins that i had collected. I took a small nap in the evening......now its evening....and i am writing this.

It is a day like no other......

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No more....

SILLY BILLY(This name is good....a good nick...isnt it? A new nut friend of mine gave it to me..thanks Nuts!)

Sunday, March 23, 2008

I cant speak...

Finally today i went to the DON BOSCO SHELTER. For the past few weeks i had been thinking about that....finally today i went there. I was in touch with this girl Gayatri...who was actually taking care of volunteers like me. So i went there..met her..and i told her that i can help the kids with their studies ..... so well there i was..i got a lot of kids to teach.....n listen to them. I met this kid who is in 8th grade and needed help with his English. I saw those kids....n then i felt what is being deprived of something. They get amazed at seeing mobiles......they were super amazed to see the pod....and they were so much interested to study.
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That is something i was never interested in. Just maybe because i went to a good school with cool fancy teachers n i never felt the need of studying....i had books....all kind of books i always needed...wanted...and there they are....sleeping in a big hall.....lined up.........every night. getting up and going to the nearest municipality school...........still they want to study. They have got ambitions....and they are grateful that they are in a better place than the slums....they want to grow up to become good citizens, and that they say would be paying back to these good people who brought them here. Not all are like that.....there are kids who were into drugs...now having been rehabilitated...they are here at the shelter...
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Still they know they are better....but they want to get out of here..they want their life to be fast forwarded....somehow! They are keen to study. This kid i was teaching..he seemed so so interested to study. I taught him for two hours.it was lunch time but he didn't want to go...i was feeling hungry too..so i told him that please go...we will continue later.............in between there were lot of kids i met..asked their name....and in between this kid came...
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I just patted him on the shoulder and asked him his name...weelll....i think this was just something that made me feel very bad...very very bad. He just flicked his fingers over his ears an mouth....and i figured out he cannot hear...niether can he speak. What could i do ?
I couldnt say anything to him....he could hear anything...nor could i gesture....i just made him feel bad. I cursed myself for that. After that i dint ask anyones name. These kids ..their life has been made better for sure, but still they lack these proper facilities and all...and it is also understandable that they cannot get it all. They will have to struggle and make their way......and they will. This kid i was teaching...he made me realize that what it is like to be feeling alone....whats its like to be sleeping with 150 other kids....he told me that when everybody sleeps he goes out..looks into the sky and thinks...what are these stars? what is this group of three stars..is it called something? I tried to tell him that its called a constellation...but he couldn't pronounce it. Soo.taught him something...and then he asked me at least 5 times....you will come back next week na? What if you dont?..please be back....all i said ...why not ..i will be back certainly...n i will be back for sure.
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We all are very lucky that we have this life....we have the pleasure of sitting infront of or PCs ..reading blogs...being comfy in the sofas....having the newest designer.... stuffing cokes n burgers.....still people are not happy....why the hell? Everyones crying....over this...over that..taking anti depressants? making themselves more depressed..we deserve it? No..maybe we just wnt it? maybe we dont need it..........and like this song i am hearing..
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But today atleast i realize that god has given me enough to be happy....to make others happy...and if i dont use my life for this..if i dont do what i can..n if i dont do what i should......then no wonders for calling me an idiot!

Sunday, February 24, 2008

A dull time

These days, all the while i kept looking for some place...some peace....some place where it could quiet, somewhere i could just sit alone..listen to the birds...think to myself....talk to myself....where no one is there to bother me...!! I never found it, i think i never will. So, what i do? Just stuff my earphones into my ears, with max volume i listen to John Denver....He is such a great singer. Am i getting mad or something?? I dont know but i am just not getting in to this screwed up mad rush city mode...i dont like the way people are living here...everybody lives their own life...just being selfish all the time...no time for anything...and also , now i think i understand why people are all looking for spirituality, yoga, meditation....may be that provides them some respite from the.

And worse is that, now i find myself strifing through the newspapers on sunday for the cathartic articles. Those all sound sweet for sometime, and you think that yes, this is the mantra to perfect everything!! But is it really? I dont know.

Although i have been one of those 'happy-go-lucky' type of persons, which i think i still am, but i dont feel good about it anymore like i used to. I guess this doesnt work. Sometime, being very enthusiatic also sucks you know. i think its just too early to say if this is right or wrong in the context which i am referring this to.

Well, all this doesnt make sense to me, all this i have written, i am basically very very confused now, i am very tensed, i am very worried about things for which i am not responsible..and i dont know if should be really worrying about it or not!! is this it??
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1108911753

All in all, i am not in a good mood. I didnt even want to write all this crap here, but even then i am doing it. I see people all around me, three kids on the street stoning a poor dog, i try to stop them but they dont stop. They might even pelt the stones at me..i dont know...so i dont insist anymore. Married couples out for a evening walk in this busy street coz thanks to the city which is called Mumbai, they dont have any park to go to ..i see people without the basic amenities..10 people stuffed into a tiny room...a common bathroom..the public utility which more than a 1000 people use everyday.....a sign board under which tons of garbage is dumped....all out of the bin...
the sign board reads CLEAN UP! ..almost funny ..is it?

The only thing i need to do now is CLEAN UP! my mind.. Life is good sometime, sometimes it is not too good... but still it is life. I guess we have our share of joy, great times, good times, better times, bad times. Right now, I am studying people....its good to sit somewhere and observe the people walking by, doing all sort of things. Guys just trying to impress girls, some other just talking about girls, other looking busy in their own personal ways..some doing loose talk....its good time pass thing@!! but its sllly tooo
....but who the hell gives a damn
Just now i had a Facebook thing also...i made me facebook......its in a mag here.....so i just made one!!!

A dull time

These days, all the while i kept looking for some place...some peace....some place where it could quiet, somewhere i could just sit alone..listen to the birds...think to myself....talk to myself....where no one is there to bother me...!! I never found it, i think i never will. So, what i do? Just stuff my earphones into my ears, with max volume i listen to John Denver....He is such a great singer. Am i getting mad or something?? I dont know but i am just not getting in to this screwed up mad rush city mode...i dont like the way people are living here...everybody lives their own life...just being selfish all the time...no time for anything...and also , now i think i understand why people are all looking for spirituality, yoga, meditation....may be that provides them some respite from the.

And worse is that, now i find myself strifing through the newspapers on sunday for the cathartic articles. Those all sound sweet for sometime, and you think that yes, this is the mantra to perfect everything!! But is it really? I dont know.

Although i have been one of those 'happy-go-lucky' type of persons, which i think i still am, but i dont feel good about it anymore like i used to. I guess this doesnt work. Sometime, being very enthusiatic also sucks you know. i think its just too early to say if this is right or wrong in the context which i am referring this to.

Well, all this doesnt make sense to me, all this i have written, i am basically very very confused now, i am very tensed, i am very worried about things for which i am not responsible..and i dont know if should be really worrying about it or not!!

All in all, i am not in a good mood. I didnt even want to write all this crap here, but even then i am doing it. I see people all around me, three kids on the street stoning a poor dog, i try to stop them but they dont stop. They might even pelt the stones at me..i dont know...so i dont insist anymore. Married couples out for a evening walk in this busy street coz thanks to the city which is called Mumbai, they dont have any park to go to ..i see people without the basic amenities..10 people stuffed into a tiny room...a common bathroom..the public utility which more than a 1000 people use everyday.....a sign board under which tons of garbage is dumped....all out of the bin...
the sign board reads CLEAN UP! ..almost funny ..is it?

The only thing i need to do now is CLEAN UP! my mind.. Life is good sometime, sometimes it is not too good... but still it is life. I guess we have our share of joy, great times, good times, better times, bad times. Right now, I am studying people....its good to sit somewhere and observe the people walking by, doing all sort of things. Guys just trying to impress girls, some other just talking about girls, other looking busy in their own personal ways..some doing loose talk....its good time pass thing@!! but its sllly tooo
....but who the hell gives a damn
Just now i had a Facebook thing also...i made me facebook......its in a mag here.....so i just made one!!!

A dull time

These days, all the while i kept looking for some place...some peace....some place where it could quiet, somewhere i could just sit alone..listen to the birds...think to myself....talk to myself....where no one is there to bother me...!! I never found it, i think i never will. So, what i do? Just stuff my earphones into my ears, with max volume i listen to John Denver....He is such a great singer. Am i getting mad or something?? I dont know but i am just not getting in to this screwed up mad rush city mode...i dont like the way people are living here...everybody lives their own life...just being selfish all the time...no time for anything...and also , now i think i understand why people are all looking for spirituality, yoga, meditation....may be that provides them some respite from the.

And worse is that, now i find myself strifing through the newspapers on sunday for the cathartic articles. Those all sound sweet for sometime, and you think that yes, this is the mantra to perfect everything!! But is it really? I dont know.

Although i have been one of those 'happy-go-lucky' type of persons, which i think i still am, but i dont feel good about it anymore like i used to. I guess this doesnt work. Sometime, being very enthusiatic also sucks you know. i think its just too early to say if this is right or wrong in the context which i am referring this to.

Well, all this doesnt make sense to me, all this i have written, i am basically very very confused now, i am very tensed, i am very worried about things for which i am not responsible..and i dont know if should be really worrying about it or not!!

All in all, i am not in a good mood. I didnt even want to write all this crap here, but even then i am doing it. I see people all around me, three kids on the street stoning a poor dog, i try to stop them but they dont stop. They might even pelt the stones at me..i dont know...so i dont insist anymore. Married couples out for a evening walk in this busy street coz thanks to the city which is called Mumbai, they dont have any park to go to ..i see people without the basic amenities..10 people stuffed into a tiny room...a common bathroom..the public utility which more than a 1000 people use everyday.....a sign board under which tons of garbage is dumped....all out of the bin...
the sign board reads CLEAN UP! ..almost funny ..is it?

The only thing i need to do now is CLEAN UP! my mind.. Life is good sometime, sometimes it is not too good... but still it is life. I guess we have our share of joy, great times, good times, better times, bad times. Right now, I am studying people....its good to sit somewhere and observe the people walking by, doing all sort of things. Guys just trying to impress girls, some other just talking about girls, other looking busy in their own personal ways..some doing loose talk....its good time pass thing@!! but its sllly tooo
....but who the hell gives a damn

Saturday, February 9, 2008

The fish has got it all !


Another week gone by.......and same old story continues. Wake up..take an auto..go to office...have time pass....get back...eat ...sleep..good night....wake up..dumboooo...too mechanical it has become it seems. Well..let me not talk about that. I think saturday is a good day....it was a god day indeed.

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Well...this week i just bought a new fish pond for me. This is because i have always loved pets. Since i was a kid..i liked to have pets with me. I had this big Bournvita Jar in my home..and i just forced my mom to get me two pairs of goldfish. She just hated pets....I tried so many times..once i got a kitten....the night the kitty shitted on the bed....so..she ws thrown out instantaneously ! I got a small dog..it was very sweet...but too angry and sharp teetehed for me to handle..even mum couldnt handle it..so two days and it went out....and i had to get an injection!! It was white...but tht time our house ws getting painted...we gave him a bath..and he fell into the colour..and became pink!!...Well...my fishes were with me for 4 months after which..my younger brothers just "murdered" them just beacuse we had a fight one day and they were like " hahaha..you fought with us and mom gave us a beating na..look now..we have killed ur fishes"...mannn.....i tell you....i cried like anything!..Hey that was way way back when was in fourth grade.....

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But i have always loved fishes..not because they are lovely or anything...ut simply because i love their "lifestyle"....well simply because

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They are obviously very cool...fishes are cool (they hv to b...)

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They are always at peace

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Watching them gives me a very nice picture of how good it must be to live all by yourself.....you dont have to think much... no1 is there to bother you all the time....u dont have to be in the hassles!!

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They are such amazing creatures and sometimes i just look at them and look at them and look at them....and well...it is always good to have someone alongwith you.....someone who can live alongside you....still never complain....and fishes have become my friends!!

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It must be good to be a fish! So,those were the Fishy Tales!!I think everybody must have a Pet.They can be your best friends...so adopt animals..!!! It wouls also be good for them....and good for you. Had i got lot of money...i wud gave adopted all the dogs in this city!!

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Well..apart from that.....there was a small party at the office friday....it was good..it was enjoyable....and monday on.....my fuse gone..........i am getting work big time!! So Sun day needs to be a Fun day............so everybody....have a great time...

Go GET a PET

go go go ..

Ashok

Friday, February 1, 2008

OH MY HOLY COW !!!

Just sing..sing a song...make it simple to last a whole life long...
Dont worry thats its not good enough for anyone else to hear!
Just sing..sing a song!!

Well.....this is one of the songs of "The Carpenters"...and i really love the whole idea behind these lines. Good..isnt it?
I have not been writing for the past week..almost two weeks....but i have been doing a lot these days......i ran the marathon and my photograph got published in one of the local newspapers here...my friends told me that..but i have not seen any of them.!!

I read a book..."HOLY COW !" by Sarah MacDonald ....and though i am not into writing a review for that still by all terms..it is a very good book. It was very interesting for me too read it.for...the first few pages i read the whole of me was burning...and i wanted to throw that book into a gutter!!..Not because it wasnt good...not at all...it was good. Its based upon how the writer had her time in INDIA...and it really might make any indian ashamed the way she describes india in the first few pages......she has given a really filthy description of the way she sees india. Even i never realized it that it was actually that way!! The reason i didnt like the description was that never before have i read about India the way she has described it....It made me laugh..and then it made me so so very bad of the mess which India actually is!!....hey tell me...is an Ambassador car a mix of "Rolls Royce" and a"russian tank".....or does a "cow" make the whole traffic come to a standstill on delhi roads......or are the "Sardars", the Irish of INDIA??well.its extremely funny..and the thing is that..its right!. After a few pages as she goes to different places in India...she sees all the religions....tries to learn them......and after so so very interesting things she talks about....i end that book and i feel good....the book is interesting...it is funny....it made me smile.....it made me feel bad about India...it made me feel good about India.....and in the end....i just popped out a very minuscule tear out of my eye!!

I have read many people who have been writing about India..but this book just was different .i loved the innocence with which she has written it.....i have become a fan of Sarah MacDonald.....she is just splendid...Kudos Sarah!!..Thank you for being so wonderful and kind to India.....and yes...about the problems you had here..Sorry for that!!.....I think it is a must must read for everyone..Its an old book....but its gr88 gr88.....

OOOOkkkk..after this review......i dont have much to write..just because i ahve not been thinking much lately....so i dont have anything to put down here....so dudes!!...tc
Ashok

Thursday, January 17, 2008

FUN in the RUN..its marathon time!!!!



I think i am quite alright now......i am back to work...and fine. WOW....these tablets really work!!....So i went to office today and the whole day i did quite a lot of things....i was assigned a new project..i attended a meeting....a seminar which my senior colleague had to give. I was there to assist him, all the Team leaders and managers came and we had to actually teach them a new routing algorithm we have to implement. So, we are upgrading our technology. A new project, wherein we will be the first of the kind in INDIA to implement, and i am a part of it..i mean by whatever means..ok. In the end he told this to everybody and told us to be proud of it....BE PROUD OF IT....so ok i am. But it doesnt involve as much as intricacies as people think. I mean those managers without any technical language were like open-mouthed and in awe. So as an engineer now i know it can be easy to fool people just be using a few complicated technical terms. ...hehe. Then i had to make some reports, and i read horoscopes, a friend sent it to me.

I am a capri....so it told me that i am caring, i am honest, imaginative, leader, thinker.....u know all the god stuff. So ..pretty happy me. I just wish that it comes true ..all that was written. A good professional year....lot of oppurtunities....luck...haha......

As much as i am into science, i still belive in luck and fate and karma.....n everything. I think yes, there is something called luck. Something which suddenly interferes with everything you do. It can just help you at the time when everything seems to be going wrong, you dont have any direction to go on....and wham!!!...suddenly everything is good again. I have experienced this....but u know let luck just do its work...you just make sure you make your present good...do everything you can in the best way you can...rest will follow...n you will have a good luck!!

Ok, another thing...luck doesnt always interfere in a god way ok. Everything might seem to be going right, and suddenly you are nowhere... I'll tell you my observation...its a good one...


You know i have seen people whom others call "lucky"...are the ones who are really free..uncaring...who just live the moment...dont think much.....are good at heart..who dont hurt anybody...really!!......i will advise you to try this ..try being this way.....dont think much....abt the future or about the past.....you are sure to get lucky. Like me!!!...........haha

Yes......i have been lucky....in everything. Its like " FEEL GOOD". Oh i forgot this :

MUMBAI MARATHON, Sunday,20th January 2008

This marathon is being organized here in mumbai, one
of biggest in the world....because of the number of participants( blame.....no no....dont blame this time.....so thanks INDIA for being 2nd largest populous country in the world, and making us INDIANS proud to host the largest marathon!!!). Well, why i am telling this because i am also a part of it....due to ppl in my new office who really dragged me into it!!...can i run 6 kms? how long is it......?? So i'll be getting a T-shirt , a cap.......nd the good thing is that i'll be running for a cause..for each of the 50 people running from my firm, our company will donate a big amount of money to a child care center, an orphanage for the special kids.....so that makes me happy....i'll run for them. And who knows...i already said" I am LUCKY"...so may be this might happen....due to my good luck, all people running around me suddenly faint.....i am at the last....walking....and suddenly...everybody faints..lets say due to pollution here in Mumabi....and look whose there......Ashok..the winner of dream run in MARATHON, 2008.......okok more when i have ran that...and if i am still alive .....
i will write!!...one thing i can do to run....may be i can find a good girl...without a boyfriend at the run.....and i will run after her....... what do you say?..................hmmmmmmmmm..good idea..thanks to me.........i am just great........this suggestion to all those poor guys who run after girls......run for a CAUSE now!!!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Pain and the People

For the quite few days i have been just drooling around, i watched a movie this weekend. It was supposed to be " The Golden Compass"...but what happened was that i landed in some other cinema hall, where they were playing " NATIONAL TREASURE"..i dont quite like Nicholas cage so i watched this hindi movie"Tare Zammen Par".....a typical Indian family movie....people were there with thir wives n kids n fathers n mothers n grandmothers n grandfathers....n grand grand what not!!! But it was an enjoyable movie....which i enjoyed...n i came to realize that i can cry watching movies!......I had to struggle so that a tear doesn't drop off!! It was about kids ....a kid who has dyslexia and who is shuned by family n friends only to be reincarnated through a teacher h finds at a boarding school where his parents dump him. So my review is like everyone lse..good movie..totally watchable.

Ok then i had this fever from day before yestrday, and i had a sore throat. Tonsils...which have been with me since i was a kid. Whenever i have them its very severe. My throat was paining and it extended upto my ears n head...i couldnt eat...i couldnt drink water,....worst thing....i cudnt even open my mouth...forget talking!!cudnt sleep....all i did was a hot water gargle.........n some antibiotics.

None helped yesterday night..it was the maddest ever........so in the morning i went to see a doctor who gave me this big heap of medicines ...and a painkiller which i needed severely. It helped.......or i wud have died out of that. The lady doctor is really nice in our office ..... she helped !! Thanks Thanks...the painkillers n the doc...both of them.

I had to write a lot ...i had so many things..a pigeon did in front of me...the kites here everybody was flying yesterday....th bad traffic where i was stuck.....office gossip n talk.......but wheres the time!!!.......and i think that painkillers effect is rubbing off....and this pain is again starting....so before it starts all over again...i should just go and take care of myself.....cos nobody else is there.
Look, this is the time when you feel the worst.You are in a new place, you dont know anything....not even where u'll find the clinic..you dont have really good friends you can call....well..."friends"...... n then you fear what if you get sick....and then one fine morning..you wake up.......your head n throat n everyting paining like anything....n then you have to go to office as well....coz the most important had of Technolgy is on for a visit..!!!..........i missed my mum a lot...really!! She is the one i can turn upto each time..tell her everything..she is like my best friend.....not like...she is ........they are everything to me!!.......and now i am sick.....i am also home sick...i want to go home.....but i cant...!! Life is sucking big time man!!!

And then people all around you are like " Grow up", "Be Strong", ...most funny " Be a man".....what the fuck man.......i know i am always smiling n when ppl around me dont see me smiling..they think i am sick or i am off or whatever......and i have people around me who are mean, in office everyone is like as in a "corporate world".....having a very "professional" attitude...who joke which sounds more like taunting for each other....gossips are always about the boss" boss is this..boss is that".....everybody thinks they are just perfect....sometime i also hate all these messy people .... hardly you find some good guy who would gives you a good advise.....everyone thinks you are eating on their job and dominance...what the hell !!!

The bad thing is that now i am also a part of all this and i have to 'learn the ropes', but i am not the guy who has a very 'foxy' thing about hiim........i dont really expect people to beahve like that..what to do?..what to do?...what to do?...this pain..fk this also!!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

SARIKA n MANISHA--

Today was saturday and i enjoyed it in my own way. I woke up at 10 in the morning..had tea at 11..after that i had lunch between which i read the newspaper...and after sometime today i went out alone. I went out to shop for myself so i went to the ATM and got 5000 bucks....and i went on for shopping. But i couldnt buy anything for myself..i just couldnt choose..so maybe i'll take my friend out tomorrow to shop for me..too confused u c. So after that my friends were at the beach waiting for me. SO i reached there ....and this very sweet girl..she was a kid.....she came to me and told that she wud make a tattoo for me...please have it...I mean she was just so sweet that i cudnt refuse it.......she had an elder sister also. Their names were "SARIKA" and "MANISHA".........i had two tattos.on my arm.....one scorpion and anothre " OM "....a religious style symbol now.........these are not permanent..just 10 days or so. SARIKA actually studies in school........i liked it very much when she told me that she goes to school .................she is really sweet..in 3rd grade....after coming from school she comes to the beach with her box..making tattos for 5 bucks...i really appreciate that girl....she works ..goes to school..at an age when kids are supposed to play....i paid her 50 bucks...not just to show my money....but really....i somehow liked the spirit and swetness of that girl.....she is very sweet. In india..this is very common...kids working..child labour..they are forced in to it...because their parents cant afford anything for them.....and our silly government....its too corrupted to do anything for them. I told here that i would come next sunday also and asked her to meet me .........and she told me" Everybody says that, No one comes"..............i felt bad......u know had i lot of money...i could have adopted her.she is very smart..and she is just how much 9 years??...........there are lot of kids here who just have so much in them but not the right resources..not the right people....people who want to do something for them arent rich enough..and those who have money..they are busy making more money for themselves driving in their sedans..........but kids like them still make a place for themselves in this cruel city.......i hope and pray to god that SARIKA and evrybidy like her..grow up to be great people...

Friday, January 4, 2008

Bar

Today i was supposed to give a party to my office colleagues. So we went to a bar nearby in the evening. It was all o good party. Everybody knew that i do not drink....so no1 actually forced me. WHat i had was a bacardi Breeezer....two bottles...Cranberry and Lime. It had some alcohol i think...no one told me. So i think this was the first time i had some alcohol. Hey..i dont feel dizzy...but anywyas..i hardly liked it. It was sour..and smelt more like vinegar!! Next to me a guy is there american probably....and hes talking to someone about his life here....3 miles form where he lives to where he works.....life is hectic..and all that. I should not hear it but..my ears ..you know they are open to everything. Ok..mexico mexico....hes from mexico...hey emme stop this...!! I think i havent much to write.....I am listening to this beautiful song by Dixie Chicks...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZj0A715HMA

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

RESOLUTIONS>>>>>>>whattt!!!! really.....really....for real this time


Well...i never thought that someday i would be making resolutions. It has always been a matter of fun and mocking..but i am actually writing this so as to return back next year..see my post and actually assessing as to how much have done....everybody makes resolutions...n i am making mine....some jot it down, others dont....so there are lot of things....and its not possible for me to write them down........

I am in a new job...so i have to make sure that i make my own personal mark..just like not everyone else...i dont have to be in "the crowd"

I should get promoted in a year...that is pretty too much to ask for in such short time, but people have done that..its possible

This new year,i dint feel god being with my guy friends..so obviously...i need a girlfriend...so i'll try to change my status from "single" to probably somewhere between "hanging" and " committed"...somewhere in between...coz i think relationships grow with time...but first i need to find a good girl...pretty soon i have to ..so that needs to be done.

Now that i am earning my own money..i think i also need to learn a bit of saving..i have always been a big big spender...so i'll check that.

I am joining french learning classes soon. I am learning it as part of my plans to join the UN.

I will learn to drive a car..but i wont buy it this year...actually i wont afford it so soon.

I think i trust people very easily..and may be thats why i have also suffered at times...still i havent learned ...change that.

Try and make a trip to some other country..anywhere..no choices...its a part of my"i have to see this whole world" thing.

Join some NGO here....for animals...use my saturdays n sundays for some work for them. Thats actually an interest of mine..

I dont drink..niether do i smoke....i am happy with that i dint get addicted to it..i am 23 and i dont see myself falling into that.......and i should make sure that i dont do that....for now..i am not interested...and i think i wont do it...

.............ok i think i cant stop....but this has to be mentioned....

Try try try to Get up early in the morning....please god..help me with that!!

FINAL WORD
I think we all people make resolutions..and you know what..i think everybody has just the same things they want in life...its all the same except that their personal lives are involved and it sounds different..but its all the same....very much.....we all want to be happy and i think we all strive for it......but let me not write about this..i am feeling hungry..diner dinner dinner..oh yes...i forgot....today three of my friends ..what do u call..looted me...they asked for a treat.....and then i had to..so we went to this Chinese restaurant....pure Chinese ok...with waiters also being chinese in this very big mall....CHINA MING.....and we had lunch..4 of us....with starters...n chicken n sea food from china...a BUDDHA VEG DELIGHT n some kind of chinese rice....and then brownies with vanilla.....
best lunch i ever had...and also the most expensive...very very very ....4 guys......just a lunch!! and nearly 2000 rupees......and still..i had to pay for that.......that was alright for the time being.....but after that really.......i had to think about it....there are so many people in this country who dont get this much money even if they work whole month day n night......and a lunch.....it cost us that much.....i think it was a wastage...it made me feel guilty of something.....


Well..just some of the things i should do....among the innumerable things i want to do.......
make life bigger..its to short.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR all my dear friends....






HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone. It was a great year and we all need to be good enough to admire and accept what all went on in our lives...good or bad. It is the first day of 2008, yet another year in the lives of al the people in this world. So, last night i had this plan of partying n all. At about 10 in the night me n other friend of mine..we went on to this beach expecting all kind of hooplah and partying n singing n dancing n what not...so we reached there somewhere around 11:30 and i was pretty disappointed seeing all the families there..i was expecting something more like us....but anyways..even that was good. But that wasnt the taste of what actually a mumbai new year party fels like. There were fireworks there..lots...some peopele were dancing....others so drunk that they couldnt even walk..one partcular guy..he was standing with his arms stretched on either sides....slanted at45 degrees n he looked as if someone had hanged him from a roof..while he was in the middle of the road....he was drunk..badly.....n then there were hot chicks..with ugly big big chickens with them.......so all in all ..it was fun. After that we went to a bar....i dont drink....my other frinds had some shots..meanwhile i had a choco frappe with a scoop of vanilla and two choco ccokies.....so that was prettty much for a new year party. We were in the bar for about 3 in the morniing.then i got really really frustrated n sleepy....the guy who were drinking looked fine..they wanted to stay...i drank coffee..so i was supposed not to sleep but i felt sleepy...so finally we were back. Well...mt friend..i wont name him..he got too drunk..3 beers he had...and then he had to pee.....while we reached our flat.....till that time he couldnt hold on....andddd.....his pants got spoiled.....tcchhhhh....!!! may me he should have listened to avril "Keep Holding Onnnnn" ...........just so much to start a new year..!! Resolutions .... everyone makes some resolutions..may be i'll also do it.. but ......right now i am light.....i am enjoying..and now i am off to do some shopping..for myself....of i go!!!.......i want to wish everyone a very HAPPY NEW YEAR ..........may god bless you with everything..may success be all yours this whole year round............and be good....do something for nature this year..may be like..STOP USING PLASTIC or TURN VEGETARIAN or may be something for the cause of poor animals.......do it...!! thats the best resolution anyine can ever follow..its easy try it!!!.....>>>>>..........n keep smiling..make others smile..thats the best you can do to anyone...really..........have a wonderful time......