A dull time

These days, all the while i kept looking for some place...some peace....some place where it could quiet, somewhere i could just sit alone..listen to the birds...think to myself....talk to myself....where no one is there to bother me...!! I never found it, i think i never will. So, what i do? Just stuff my earphones into my ears, with max volume i listen to John Denver....He is such a great singer. Am i getting mad or something?? I dont know but i am just not getting in to this screwed up mad rush city mode...i dont like the way people are living here...everybody lives their own life...just being selfish all the time...no time for anything...and also , now i think i understand why people are all looking for spirituality, yoga, meditation....may be that provides them some respite from the.

And worse is that, now i find myself strifing through the newspapers on sunday for the cathartic articles. Those all sound sweet for sometime, and you think that yes, this is the mantra to perfect everything!! But is it really? I dont know.

Although i have been one of those 'happy-go-lucky' type of persons, which i think i still am, but i dont feel good about it anymore like i used to. I guess this doesnt work. Sometime, being very enthusiatic also sucks you know. i think its just too early to say if this is right or wrong in the context which i am referring this to.

Well, all this doesnt make sense to me, all this i have written, i am basically very very confused now, i am very tensed, i am very worried about things for which i am not responsible..and i dont know if should be really worrying about it or not!! is this it??
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All in all, i am not in a good mood. I didnt even want to write all this crap here, but even then i am doing it. I see people all around me, three kids on the street stoning a poor dog, i try to stop them but they dont stop. They might even pelt the stones at me..i dont know...so i dont insist anymore. Married couples out for a evening walk in this busy street coz thanks to the city which is called Mumbai, they dont have any park to go to ..i see people without the basic amenities..10 people stuffed into a tiny room...a common bathroom..the public utility which more than a 1000 people use everyday.....a sign board under which tons of garbage is dumped....all out of the bin...
the sign board reads CLEAN UP! ..almost funny ..is it?

The only thing i need to do now is CLEAN UP! my mind.. Life is good sometime, sometimes it is not too good... but still it is life. I guess we have our share of joy, great times, good times, better times, bad times. Right now, I am studying people....its good to sit somewhere and observe the people walking by, doing all sort of things. Guys just trying to impress girls, some other just talking about girls, other looking busy in their own personal ways..some doing loose talk....its good time pass thing@!! but its sllly tooo
....but who the hell gives a damn
Just now i had a Facebook thing also...i made me facebook......its in a mag here.....so i just made one!!!

A dull time

These days, all the while i kept looking for some place...some peace....some place where it could quiet, somewhere i could just sit alone..listen to the birds...think to myself....talk to myself....where no one is there to bother me...!! I never found it, i think i never will. So, what i do? Just stuff my earphones into my ears, with max volume i listen to John Denver....He is such a great singer. Am i getting mad or something?? I dont know but i am just not getting in to this screwed up mad rush city mode...i dont like the way people are living here...everybody lives their own life...just being selfish all the time...no time for anything...and also , now i think i understand why people are all looking for spirituality, yoga, meditation....may be that provides them some respite from the.

And worse is that, now i find myself strifing through the newspapers on sunday for the cathartic articles. Those all sound sweet for sometime, and you think that yes, this is the mantra to perfect everything!! But is it really? I dont know.

Although i have been one of those 'happy-go-lucky' type of persons, which i think i still am, but i dont feel good about it anymore like i used to. I guess this doesnt work. Sometime, being very enthusiatic also sucks you know. i think its just too early to say if this is right or wrong in the context which i am referring this to.

Well, all this doesnt make sense to me, all this i have written, i am basically very very confused now, i am very tensed, i am very worried about things for which i am not responsible..and i dont know if should be really worrying about it or not!!

All in all, i am not in a good mood. I didnt even want to write all this crap here, but even then i am doing it. I see people all around me, three kids on the street stoning a poor dog, i try to stop them but they dont stop. They might even pelt the stones at me..i dont know...so i dont insist anymore. Married couples out for a evening walk in this busy street coz thanks to the city which is called Mumbai, they dont have any park to go to ..i see people without the basic amenities..10 people stuffed into a tiny room...a common bathroom..the public utility which more than a 1000 people use everyday.....a sign board under which tons of garbage is dumped....all out of the bin...
the sign board reads CLEAN UP! ..almost funny ..is it?

The only thing i need to do now is CLEAN UP! my mind.. Life is good sometime, sometimes it is not too good... but still it is life. I guess we have our share of joy, great times, good times, better times, bad times. Right now, I am studying people....its good to sit somewhere and observe the people walking by, doing all sort of things. Guys just trying to impress girls, some other just talking about girls, other looking busy in their own personal ways..some doing loose talk....its good time pass thing@!! but its sllly tooo
....but who the hell gives a damn
Just now i had a Facebook thing also...i made me facebook......its in a mag here.....so i just made one!!!

A dull time

These days, all the while i kept looking for some place...some peace....some place where it could quiet, somewhere i could just sit alone..listen to the birds...think to myself....talk to myself....where no one is there to bother me...!! I never found it, i think i never will. So, what i do? Just stuff my earphones into my ears, with max volume i listen to John Denver....He is such a great singer. Am i getting mad or something?? I dont know but i am just not getting in to this screwed up mad rush city mode...i dont like the way people are living here...everybody lives their own life...just being selfish all the time...no time for anything...and also , now i think i understand why people are all looking for spirituality, yoga, meditation....may be that provides them some respite from the.

And worse is that, now i find myself strifing through the newspapers on sunday for the cathartic articles. Those all sound sweet for sometime, and you think that yes, this is the mantra to perfect everything!! But is it really? I dont know.

Although i have been one of those 'happy-go-lucky' type of persons, which i think i still am, but i dont feel good about it anymore like i used to. I guess this doesnt work. Sometime, being very enthusiatic also sucks you know. i think its just too early to say if this is right or wrong in the context which i am referring this to.

Well, all this doesnt make sense to me, all this i have written, i am basically very very confused now, i am very tensed, i am very worried about things for which i am not responsible..and i dont know if should be really worrying about it or not!!

All in all, i am not in a good mood. I didnt even want to write all this crap here, but even then i am doing it. I see people all around me, three kids on the street stoning a poor dog, i try to stop them but they dont stop. They might even pelt the stones at me..i dont know...so i dont insist anymore. Married couples out for a evening walk in this busy street coz thanks to the city which is called Mumbai, they dont have any park to go to ..i see people without the basic amenities..10 people stuffed into a tiny room...a common bathroom..the public utility which more than a 1000 people use everyday.....a sign board under which tons of garbage is dumped....all out of the bin...
the sign board reads CLEAN UP! ..almost funny ..is it?

The only thing i need to do now is CLEAN UP! my mind.. Life is good sometime, sometimes it is not too good... but still it is life. I guess we have our share of joy, great times, good times, better times, bad times. Right now, I am studying people....its good to sit somewhere and observe the people walking by, doing all sort of things. Guys just trying to impress girls, some other just talking about girls, other looking busy in their own personal ways..some doing loose talk....its good time pass thing@!! but its sllly tooo
....but who the hell gives a damn

The fish has got it all !

Another week gone by.......and same old story continues. Wake up..take an auto..go to office...have time pass....get back...eat ...sleep..good night....wake up..dumboooo...too mechanical it has become it seems. Well..let me not talk about that. I think saturday is a good day....it was a god day indeed.

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Well...this week i just bought a new fish pond for me. This is because i have always loved pets. Since i was a kid..i liked to have pets with me. I had this big Bournvita Jar in my home..and i just forced my mom to get me two pairs of goldfish. She just hated pets....I tried so many times..once i got a kitten....the night the kitty shitted on the bed....so..she ws thrown out instantaneously ! I got a small dog..it was very sweet...but too angry and sharp teetehed for me to handle..even mum couldnt handle it..so two days and it went out....and i had to get an injection!! It was white...but tht time our house ws getting painted...we gave him a bath..and he fell into the colour..and became pink!!...Well...my fishes were with me for 4 months after which..my younger brothers just "murdered" them just beacuse we had a fight one day and they were like " hahaha..you fought with us and mom gave us a beating na..look now..we have killed ur fishes"...mannn.....i tell you....i cried like anything!..Hey that was way way back when was in fourth grade.....

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But i have always loved fishes..not because they are lovely or anything...ut simply because i love their "lifestyle"....well simply because

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They are obviously very cool...fishes are cool (they hv to b...)

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They are always at peace

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Watching them gives me a very nice picture of how good it must be to live all by yourself.....you dont have to think much... no1 is there to bother you all the time....u dont have to be in the hassles!!

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They are such amazing creatures and sometimes i just look at them and look at them and look at them....and well...it is always good to have someone alongwith you.....someone who can live alongside you....still never complain....and fishes have become my friends!!

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It must be good to be a fish! So,those were the Fishy Tales!!I think everybody must have a Pet.They can be your best friends...so adopt animals..!!! It wouls also be good for them....and good for you. Had i got lot of money...i wud gave adopted all the dogs in this city!!

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Well..apart from that.....there was a small party at the office friday....it was good..it was enjoyable....and monday on.....my fuse gone..........i am getting work big time!! So Sun day needs to be a Fun day............so everybody....have a great time...

Go GET a PET

go go go ..

Ashok

OH MY HOLY COW !!!

Just sing..sing a song...make it simple to last a whole life long...
Dont worry thats its not good enough for anyone else to hear!
Just sing..sing a song!!

Well.....this is one of the songs of "The Carpenters"...and i really love the whole idea behind these lines. Good..isnt it?
I have not been writing for the past week..almost two weeks....but i have been doing a lot these days......i ran the marathon and my photograph got published in one of the local newspapers here...my friends told me that..but i have not seen any of them.!!

I read a book..."HOLY COW !" by Sarah MacDonald ....and though i am not into writing a review for that still by all terms..it is a very good book. It was very interesting for me too read it.for...the first few pages i read the whole of me was burning...and i wanted to throw that book into a gutter!!..Not because it wasnt good...not at all...it was good. Its based upon how the writer had her time in INDIA...and it really might make any indian ashamed the way she describes india in the first few pages......she has given a really filthy description of the way she sees india. Even i never realized it that it was actually that way!! The reason i didnt like the description was that never before have i read about India the way she has described it....It made me laugh..and then it made me so so very bad of the mess which India actually is!!....hey tell me...is an Ambassador car a mix of "Rolls Royce" and a"russian tank".....or does a "cow" make the whole traffic come to a standstill on delhi roads......or are the "Sardars", the Irish of INDIA??well.its extremely funny..and the thing is that..its right!. After a few pages as she goes to different places in India...she sees all the religions....tries to learn them......and after so so very interesting things she talks about....i end that book and i feel good....the book is interesting...it is funny....it made me smile.....it made me feel bad about India...it made me feel good about India.....and in the end....i just popped out a very minuscule tear out of my eye!!

I have read many people who have been writing about India..but this book just was different .i loved the innocence with which she has written it.....i have become a fan of Sarah MacDonald.....she is just splendid...Kudos Sarah!!..Thank you for being so wonderful and kind to India.....and yes...about the problems you had here..Sorry for that!!.....I think it is a must must read for everyone..Its an old book....but its gr88 gr88.....

OOOOkkkk..after this review......i dont have much to write..just because i ahve not been thinking much lately....so i dont have anything to put down here....so dudes!!...tc
Ashok