A day i will not atleast in the next few months. Ya. Thats for sure. I dint go to office today, without any particular reason. I just wanted a break..from that office. So i just called up one senior in the morning. And i faked...i told i have headache and dysentery. I had to think a lot..before i just called him up. I actually shouldnt have done it. Later on, I did feel guilty for telling a lie. And well..i am also not going to repeat that. But this day it became special in its own very kind. It was very different because the whole day i was all alone.....all alone in my flat..with noone besides me..no chitter chatter......and i enjoyed that. It was bliss. I spent the day reading books...cleaning my room....read old newspapers..had a chat with mum....and she also said i shudnt be doing this kind of thing.....just because that if something makes you feel guilty..you should not do it...Well..it was like listening to the heart and not to the soul....though this isnt a very big thing i did..people keep doing this......telling lies..faking things....but maybe i dont like it.....i hated it when a colleague actually called me up and asked me how i was......i was perfectly well and ...i had to say tht i am this n that....my guilty conscience...!
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How many of we feel that we need this kind of a day in our life? A day when you want to clear your mind..spending the day all by yourself.....enjoying the solitude.....sometimes it feels so great when you are alone..at times it happens doesnt it? You want to go far far away....fay from the maddening rush...you dont want to be bothered by whats happening in this world.....you want to come in terms with yourself......you are able to enjoy even that omlette that you made for yourself alongwith two slices of bread....even if it gets burnt its ok.....it still looks good and tastes better....it tastes like the best lunch you had in the last few weeks? weell...I feel I need this kind of day......I need it...I want it....again.
Now..why i liked the day? Why i am also grateful that i took it off? Its because i was all alone...and someone who knows me well also knows that its perfect for me to be this way.....be alone....all by myself..i enjoy my solitude! and i did that today.....i think that from the day i came to this mad place..first time i was at peace with myself....and this world. I recreated old memories...i read books...i studied an old book which i had already read....i listened to music with low volume....and i was actually able to recount the days that i was having a year back..back at home.....back at the college.....with friends ..i took my time to thank god for eveything i have in this life......for that he has blessed me with more than i deserve...so thats also another reason why this day was special. I took a look at old photographs...my old stamp book..my old coins that i had collected. I took a small nap in the evening......now its evening....and i am writing this.
It is a day like no other......
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No more....
SILLY BILLY(This name is good....a good nick...isnt it? A new nut friend of mine gave it to me..thanks Nuts!)
2 comments:
Taking a day off to rejuvinate and re-energize is no different than actually feeling sick. why do we need to exxplain it to anyone? It is our right to take a day to balance ourselves. We become so much more functional in the workplace as a result. Good for you!!!!
You did that one year ago...i do it in like every month..c'mon brother..do it again..
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